Last but not Least..

This is my third pregnancy and by far one of the toughest ones I've gone through so far, even after getting pregnant 6 months after my firstborn! How could this be my toughest pregnancy, you may ask? You'd think it would be easy at this point, right? I mean I know what to expect after two, and I've read that book a few times through as well. Maybe it's having two toddlers to chase around all day, take care of the house, prepare meals, laundry, dealing with RA, trying to have a social life and working? But no, the truth is none of those things are the reason it has been so tough for me. It been so tough because it's my last pregnancy, it's the end of an era. I get really sad sometimes because of all these things that will be my last time to experience. The last time to see that postitive pregnancy test and feel my heart almost burst through my chest, the last time to feel that sweet little kick for the first time, the last time to have a miracle happen inside of me, the last time to gently rub my big belly and think of all the possibilities that this child will bring, the last time I can ever wear those awesome full panel pregnancy pants, the last of so many wonderful moments of creating life! I have to keep telling myself there are lots of other great firsts that will come from all these lasts. I will very much miss these days and wish there was a way I could capture these moments and feelings, that are more than a picture or even words can describe or explain! I still have 20 weeks left in this pregnancy and even though there have been some very uncomfortable moments (as pregnancy sometimes does bring) I will enjoy and cherish every one for it is my last. And I am forever grateful to God for letting someone like me get to experince something so perfect, amazing and wonderful the gift of life.